I am known to be someone with a strong will-power. Well, the key word here is 'known'. I try to live upto it this incontestably good quality. Lord knows how I have given some people that impression. But I do get really persevering if I set my mind to something. That's how my current job came to me. Everyone around me could have sworn I was aimless hunting.
However, I shouldn't take the credit for all the good that has come my way. Opportunity has played its vital role.
Having said that, I have been awaiting a certain opportunity to befall upon me for quite sometime now - always looking for the slightest sign, the smallest word uttered that might forebode the occurence of the opportunity. But nothing. I tried, missed, tried again, half the time not kowing if I was going the right away. With nobody to guide me, it has been rather hard.
I have long nurtured a wish to be a full-time singer. But since my taste in the music I hear as well as sing is so diverse, I didn't want to get restricted to being a performing artiste in any one style. Mine is the 'free style'. I like borrowing from here and there, adding my own thing and creating something enigmatic. It is hard to explain the rush I get when I hear some bits from the 'Shakti' band. I have at times gone back to hearing a bit that spans barely 5 secs again and again! Anyway, the question I asked myself repeatedly then was - if its not classical, if its not mainstream film, if its not pop, what is it?? There is no answer to that question. But I like the music some people in the industry create and I figured, for starters, I'd like to be part of that. Be this free bird who could flock from one team of enthusiastic music makers to another. It would be perfect!
So I wait..no waited patiently, for the opportunity to present itself, still putting in my bit of effort once in a while. No committed effort, just loose effort. My friends had the answer to my creative grief - "Go for the talent hunt!", they'd tell me. I was aghast at the very thought of it. Talent Hunt? You mean standing in lines, being judged and mocked at by a bunch of morons, letting the public of India decide my fate through their precious votes?? And endure heavy make-up, make-overs, forced dance steps to go with the singing? No way. I wasn't going to fall into the trap of reality shows. It is unreal in my world of music.
Having said that, I was willing to do this if I had faith in the person judging me, if I liked what he/she had to offer in music. And I hoped such a person wouldn't care for the looks, the dance, the height-weight ratio or any of that. I don't particulalry like the associated marketing, hype and other such bagaage that comes with shows like these. And besides, it would take me somewhere I didn't want to go.
And the opporutnity arrived, like most others do from the most unexpcted quarters. It may just be the beginning of beginnings, but its sure to take me somewhere. Atleast its given me the comfort of not feeling wasted (something I battle every weekend). I have a purpose, a goal, however short-term and its keeping me alive. Its put life back into me. I can feel the rush again!. Its incredible. I expect nothing, although an elimination is bound to bring some disappointment, but still - its all worth it. And you know the best part? It couldn't have been better timed.
However, I shouldn't take the credit for all the good that has come my way. Opportunity has played its vital role.
Having said that, I have been awaiting a certain opportunity to befall upon me for quite sometime now - always looking for the slightest sign, the smallest word uttered that might forebode the occurence of the opportunity. But nothing. I tried, missed, tried again, half the time not kowing if I was going the right away. With nobody to guide me, it has been rather hard.
I have long nurtured a wish to be a full-time singer. But since my taste in the music I hear as well as sing is so diverse, I didn't want to get restricted to being a performing artiste in any one style. Mine is the 'free style'. I like borrowing from here and there, adding my own thing and creating something enigmatic. It is hard to explain the rush I get when I hear some bits from the 'Shakti' band. I have at times gone back to hearing a bit that spans barely 5 secs again and again! Anyway, the question I asked myself repeatedly then was - if its not classical, if its not mainstream film, if its not pop, what is it?? There is no answer to that question. But I like the music some people in the industry create and I figured, for starters, I'd like to be part of that. Be this free bird who could flock from one team of enthusiastic music makers to another. It would be perfect!
So I wait..no waited patiently, for the opportunity to present itself, still putting in my bit of effort once in a while. No committed effort, just loose effort. My friends had the answer to my creative grief - "Go for the talent hunt!", they'd tell me. I was aghast at the very thought of it. Talent Hunt? You mean standing in lines, being judged and mocked at by a bunch of morons, letting the public of India decide my fate through their precious votes?? And endure heavy make-up, make-overs, forced dance steps to go with the singing? No way. I wasn't going to fall into the trap of reality shows. It is unreal in my world of music.
Having said that, I was willing to do this if I had faith in the person judging me, if I liked what he/she had to offer in music. And I hoped such a person wouldn't care for the looks, the dance, the height-weight ratio or any of that. I don't particulalry like the associated marketing, hype and other such bagaage that comes with shows like these. And besides, it would take me somewhere I didn't want to go.
And the opporutnity arrived, like most others do from the most unexpcted quarters. It may just be the beginning of beginnings, but its sure to take me somewhere. Atleast its given me the comfort of not feeling wasted (something I battle every weekend). I have a purpose, a goal, however short-term and its keeping me alive. Its put life back into me. I can feel the rush again!. Its incredible. I expect nothing, although an elimination is bound to bring some disappointment, but still - its all worth it. And you know the best part? It couldn't have been better timed.
